May May Go Away

Why does time fly by so fast?

The month of May has now come to an end.

31 days went by, and yet I remember so little.

There were many important events during many stressful times. Yet why is it no longer a thought in my mind?

It's a great reminder that something like stress is unnecessary. It comes and goes. However, we can seem to live without it. For some reason, stress always creeps up. Maybe it's because I am an anxious person by nature.

I have worked over the years to get over it, and I have. I have worked in hotels where I interacted with lots and lots of people. I was forced to interact with them.

Large groups make me anxious, not knowing when I'm leaving makes me anxious. I'm sure it has to do with the fact that I am not in control of something like that.

When I am not in control, I want to be. I like to let things work out, but if I can take over and do it, why not?

I have to work on taking criticism. At times, when I hear a certain tone, and it sounds like they are speaking to me, it infuriates me.

I've learned that I am not as emotionally mature as I thought I was.

At times, I just zone out everything, go on autopilot, and get what needs to be done done.

It is a coping mechanism for me wanting to speed up time, and it works in a way, but I remember nothing.